Ok so here is what has been going on. It seems a little nuts to be documenting this before anything is actually official (I’m so superstitious) but I guess this blog has been just about documenting the process and this is as part of the process as anything. So here goes.
That article I posted here (and also posted on Facebook).. it really got to me. I felt like I had written it myself – how she felt in her 20s, how she feels now, what’s wrong with today’s companies. All of it. It is exactly what I have been yelling from the rooftops ever since coming back to work in June – why don’t we make it easier for women to come back to work from having a baby? Why are there not more part-time, job-shares, work from home opportunities? Why are we actively pushing people like me, who have spent the last decade building up a successful career and arsenal of skills and talent, out of the workforce because we are no longer willing to conform to an antiquated infrastructure. Who, if forced to choose, will always choose their children but that does not mean they don’t have a strong desire to work. Who want to be valued and contributing members of society but have to put their kid’s needs first. It seems completely illogical to me. And almost like a waste of money when you think about it. Companies have invested a lot of money in my career development…was that money all for naught if you won’t then be flexible enough to let me do the work you trained me to do, but in the way I choose to do it? I digress. But suffice it to say, this is a passionate topic for me.
So, the article. It got to me. I mean when do I post articles on Facebook? Not very often. All of a sudden a thought popped in my head “I have to write this woman. I have to write her and tell her that she has started exactly what I’ve been contemplating all year.” So I started drafting an email. It flowed fast – it was like it was pouring out of me. When I reread it after I was done, I barely touched a word. So I sent it. To every variation of Katharine Zaleski @ PowerToFly I could come up with. But they all bounced back. So I went to her LinkedIN and Facebook – both VERY corporate looking, meaning the type that were more for show vs. something that she was using for personal use, ie: checking messages on. But I cut and paste my email there and sent it to her. I went to her website and thought about using their one “contact us” submission form to send the same letter. All of this took well over an hour on a random Tuesday night. At the very last minute, I checked our salesforce database to see if they are a customer and lo and behold, they are and THERE was her email address. Hark, I have found it.
I sent the email and it didn’t bounce back.
The very next morning, we were going through our normal morning routine with the Today Show on in the background and all of a sudden I hear “the article that is sweeping the country, and here we have Katharine Zaleski to discuss”. Well shoot. That combined with the fact that people were posting and re-posting that article every time I checked my facebook feed… I figured my shot of hearing from her now was pretty darn low. I was sure my email would get buried amidst all of the correspondence that she’d received from this huge media frenzy.
But yet something in my gut said…”I kinda think you’ll hear back”.
Fast forward 10 days, just this past Sunday. I was up at Sugar Bowl trying to entertain a very busy and restless toddler while J competed in the Banzai races and on a rare quiet moment, I checked my email. She responded!! I opened it, read it and truthfully, felt a little bummed. She was absolutely appreciative of my note and loved hearing my story, but she ended with saying she’d “love to see me on her site”. That wasn’t what I wanted at all. I didn’t want to be one of the moms working on PowerToFly, I wanted to be a mom working FOR PowerToFly.
I sat on it for a day and then decided to respond. I clarified my intentions, stated that I understood that they were likely a very lean organization right now but that should they have any West Coast needs, here is my resume and to let me know. If not, I’d love to be a part of the conversation moving forward (they are starting a forum to foster this type of discussion). She wrote me back in less than 5 minutes, thanking me for clarifying and said that as a matter of fact, they have a huge need right now to address their sales strategy. And could I speak with their Chief Revenue Officer, cc’ed. The CRO responded within 10 minutes to that email and the next thing I know, I have a call set with her for the very next day at 10:30am.
So now it’s Tuesday. My call with this gal (talk about an intimidating resume..!) is set for 10:30 and it goes pretty well. She had a ton of questions about my resume, my management experience etc. At the end she asks that I speak with one of the founders sometime this week. I say sure. I write a thank you note and send it off within an hour of our call, to which she responds immediately and says “actually, can you speak with our founder this afternoon? How’s 1:30pm?”
1:30pm comes around, and I’m on the phone with another incredibly impressive woman with an intimidating resume but the call goes great. It was so inspiring to hear her story, why she started the company, the potential she sees and the whitespace that needs painting. She had a ton of questions about whether or not I can really run a sales organization. Have I ever built a comp plan? Can I put together a training program? Do I hire well? Yes, yes and yes. This is right in my wheel house. I’ve done all of this before, and I’ve done it well. By the end of the call she says “well, listen here’s the deal. You seem like a very smart and driven girl who knows exactly what she wants”. And then she says that she is going to put together an offer letter for me. An offer. Like, a job. I thanked her profusely and then she went into a little speech on serendipity.
She said “listen it was serendipitous how Katharine and I even came together to start this company…she sent me a birth announcement on the birth of her first child and it reminded me that I wanted to run some ideas by her so I called her and set up lunch”. She said that she thought it was extremely serendipitous that they had found me. That my email had surfaced given how much correspondence they’ve received since the article and news frenzy began. That I had the exact experience they were looking for, the passion for the project etc. It was all serendipity.
We ended the call and she said “I guess you should probably also speak with Katharine, so I will set that up”. Katharine and I spoke this morning – I think it went well. She definitely was much more focused on determining whether I can actually DO this job. Can I really build a sales organization? Put a scalable and sustainable structure in place? Will I roll up my sleeves and help them solve their immediate problem of too much demand and not enough people to facilitate it? Unfortunately, while my resume looks good, none of these ladies come from the tech industry so the names and positions on my resume don’t speak for themselves as much as they might in my own field. But I did my best, and that is all I can do.
She said to me at the end “if we were to offer you a job, how soon can you start”. I, of course, wanted to say “oh hey wait, you already offered me one!” but I get that they need to vet me fully. It seemed awfully crazy to me that they wanted to hire me after 60 minutes of discussion, so having a bit more process in place is not a bad thing. That said, of course I’m nervous and stressed that maybe they didn’t like me as much as I liked them. What if I didn’t convey my experience appropriately or they want someone who has worked at a start-up before? Why does the brain always go to self-doubt?
I also need to pull back and really be sure that this is a leap I’d be willing to take. It’s a HUGE risk. They are VERY small and have grown exponentially in a VERY short amt of time. It’s make or break time. I’m going to have to work REALLY hard – am I up for the challenge?
Here’s what I do know though, that gives me comfort and peace in all of it. Whatever is supposed to happen will. If this is the job I’m supposed to take, an offer will come through and I will feel an overwhelming push to take it. If it isn’t, then something will fall through and this won’t pan out. And that’s ok too. I feel like I am past the point of wanting something SO bad and feeling nervous that it might not come through. I did my best. I put my best foot forward. That is all I can do and the rest will play out as it should.
At the very least, it has proven to me that all of what I’ve been writing about is actually true. That there is something out there for me. I’ve been so locked in this circle of thinking that what I am passionate about doesn’t necessarily translate into what my skills are. Yes, I LOVE photography. But I’m not really that good at it! I love cooking and entertaining, but do I really want to do that for a living? And what I’m good at – sales and business – that is what I DON’T want to do because I can’t imagine selling widgets forever. But what if it isn’t widgets. What if it is a belief that I am selling. A belief that is so core to who I am that I’ve been bitching and moaning about it for close to a year (to ANYBODY that will listen), and really, longer than that.
Apparently I’ve been confusing my disgruntled and irate employee behavior with real, true passion. Who knew?
I don’t know what will happen. But remember that post I wrote on trusting your gut? I have that feeling. The one I felt in my sorority house. The one I felt when I walked into Softchoice for the first time. The one I felt when I walked into the condo on Avila. The one I felt when J came over the night I was sick with strep throat.
And from there, all I can do is give it my all.